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Haha...wad a dae todae mann...went skool do thinking dae design...ya...but still dunno if k la...skool was so empty...coy2...haha...we had to wait mann...cos ppl all come so late...haha...manage to draw...ten backdrop ppl were there too...measuring tables n stuff...haha...weiling so cute la...ten she sae go watch the grudge...haha...come attack mi...I sae oki la...ten I went attack yu rong...haha...

After tt went to bras plaza find cloth...met pandora n sok yin at city hall...wahx pandora...nice mann...total transformed...haha...wear skirt somemore...heng we nv go shoppin...or else they all ppl force mi go wear skirt...k die oki...haha...bras plaza...bit waste effort to go there...ya...ten went to spotlight...the cloth there so damm ex...funny thing is thinkin dae banner is so much bigger yet we get abt twice less the amt the backdrop ppl get...haha...ya...but somehow...backdrop bought the cloth liao...one thing I muz sae...wahx...todae we so damm active...got escalator dun wan take...climb n run up stairs...ten whole dae run...so tired...

Haha...ya...ten we went to cinileisure ya...the grudge not screen there...weiling sae dollmaster nice...ya...actually din want...but mi n yurong reluctantly sae oki...haha...mi n weiling damm broke k...we went pastamania eat...was super hungry...ten at the end...I onli got 10cents left...wahx...the doll master...scary...somemore tt the first time mi n yurong c horror movie...we scream like mad...n knock into each other head...covered our eyes more ten we watch...haha...worst experience...the show had lotta anti-climax...frm the start we was already screamin away...cant imagine tt dolls k possessed pp...n hunt their master hu abandon them...lucky 4 mi...I no dolls...onli got soft toy...haha...so practically todae...been careful tt go toilet oso muz check...freaky mann...tink grudge less scary...ya...wud be a long time ten I wud watch a horror or ghost movie...haha...

Din noe mi entry k touch ppl...haha...hint...haha...ya...I still feel damm sad la...c her todae...haha...she oso putting up brave front...haha...nono...we din broke down or anything...we had lotta fun...haha...love her sia...yaya...no matter wad...I support u oki...ya...joy too...if u reading tis...dun worry ya...haha...oki...

Mi throat hurts lots...ya...drank 6 bottles of water...ya...1st time record in 4 hrs...pipa kao no use...honey n lemon...oso la...ate lozenges...oso din help...in fact it is getting worst...tink infection...oh well...tmr c doctor...ya...dun tink k tok on sundae...no voice...sad...means I cant tok...wahx...anywae gtg ppl...aidos...

posted by Humpty @ 11:19 PM 0 comments

u stupid gal...muz make mi cry...why din tt sms pass to mi phone yesterdae...i din noe...wasnt prepared...ten u sae it...i realli hate u...why nv sms again when i din replied...ten u leh...sae hu cry is pig...u cried more oki...ya...those words...realli impacted mi lots...tried hard not to cry...mi eyes was burnin...i saw ur face...u was sad...could c u din wanna cry...ya...u told mi not...i held it back...we took pics...pics r plentiful...nice ones...kena stop by teacher hu though i was gonna commit suicide...but i din...posin for camera...ya...made u smile...it was kinda a joke...ya...

went to stuff room with u...gave tay his dog back...but u got it rite...treaure it ya...he asked mi why was i sad...not usual mi...ya...din noe mi respond gave such impact...ya...u tok to him...i was in the midst of cryin...went to piano n play la...saw teachers...erer,lizah,faridah,yeo,tan bee chok,lee mei kay...haha...all ask same qns...is there anything wrong...couldnt bring miself to face it...esp erer...she stupid la...she sae...she suspected...i cried...mi eyes felt hot...tis time tears ya...u tok to tay finish...dragged u to the piano...tried to play u a song...the song i composed u sae 9/10...thx u...ya...onli the first part u barged into the toliet...it was hard for mi to play it...tears juz flood la...went to toliet find u...haha...ya...we both cried...we both pigs..but u cried more...haha...tink we scared ms ng off la...haha...but seriously...we made a fool of ourself...ten ppl saw ur red eyes...v pai seh sia...haha...

ten ur coy did the thinkin dae banner thing...ya...our class had the reflection time(let bygones be bygones...wad u wanna sae...juz sae...dun carry grudges tt the most impt)...ya...they was askin where was u...tried to persuade u thrice...ten u came...ya...u dread it la...i udstd...but the klass was somehow diff...din came out the way u though they be...ya...u told them...they oso cried...so many of us...all the mistakes...we are too yet to blame oki...if we had accepted u...u wun have be in this state...though make fren with u...i was oso at fault...peer pressure la...sry kae.. and another thing...why does 2N have this sorta things goin on each yr...i realli wonder...is there a trend...???hey gurl...sorry oki...

ya...i love report books...for 4 times...i won u twice,tied once n lost once...haha...we alwaes quits if u realised...but i muz admit u are more intelligent...ya...dun waste ur chance oki...ur intelligence k bring u further...trust mi...ya...u went to c counseller...ten we started petition...but the results...successful...we dunno...hope tt it k help change their mind...dun worry kae...no matter where u go...i support u...nid mi give mi a call i will help...

after ur stuff...we went canteen...ya...talk la...u realised ur mistakes too...i'm glad la...i feel happy for u...rmb this...dun be silly liao oki...ya...and thx u seniors...hope tt petition will help...ya...ten i dragged her up again...determined to play her tt song again...told her cannot cry...cos i wun cry...did she do it...yeah...she did...claps...somehow if she hear the full...mi heart wun rest in peace...ya...ten we sat in courtyard n tok...pearlyn,sokyin,shihan,sharon,gwen,liying,sining...came to join...had a fun time din we...blow the air balloon...i dunno wad tt called...but no matter how many times i try...it juz pop...haha...ten we took pics again...ya...soon...we went home...we talk in the bus...tt time...i din wanna leave the bus...i wished the bus could stop forever...i wan u to be there...in guides,campfire...ya...we talk abt smuggling u in...haha...we could try la...

haha...ya...wanna apologised to u la...cos ur frenship not smooth...maybe oso becos of tt u did foolish things...tink abt it...ya...we got faith in u oki...ya...dun let us down...cos we noe u k...u go gurl...no matter wad...i help u...n tt a promise...friends forever no matter wad...n i am touched tt u siad u will nv disappoint the people who trust u...its god will la...gotta face n not run away frm reality...ya...gd luck...

foolishness is not good...turn away from evil...doesnt make life more worth it...thick abt it...losin a fren realli hurts like glass shatterin...so ya...tink before u act...and follow goodness forever...amen...haha...abit holy...dunno wad to end it...but amen...

posted by Humpty @ 6:55 PM 0 comments

sigh...i dunno le la...

so fast...this yr term gonna end tmr...how fast k it get...next yr gonna be sec3s...i dun wan lop...i wanna remain a sec2...free to do wadeva...ya...ten k have so much fun,laughter,crappiness,lotta nice n slack life...dun nid prepare tis n tt...basically having the most comfy life...havin lotta ppl crappin abt...esp with ppl in guides...ten k go have fun...go out...haha...guess no more tt liao though hol is cummin...i seriously dun wan go upper sec...be a sec3...cos ya...the time left in cedar is so much shorter...haha...will cry mann...

this few daes...had guides campfire2005 preparation...yeah..glad to be in fire structure with yurong,verena n andrea...plus i/c with is shihan...haha...muz control miself...interrup shihan alwaes...cos everytime i thought she finish tokin liao....sry la...shall zip mi mouth...but i guess zip wun be effective enuff...haha...put masking tape...plus lotta wires n alumininm...maybe shd give mi 2 bricks to carry all dae...haha...no...had lotta training todae...made up the structure of fire...carried lotta bricks n oso like make a fool outta miself...we did the gate thing...failed 4 1st try...tink we gonna do it later...in the hols...

tokin abt hols...got camps,guides stuff...n mabbe robotics...heard frm elaine i in mechanical department...so FRS next yr...sure die...juz hope not in march hols...or not it sure clash with the johor camp if 10 ppl signin up...i wanna go...dun go will die...i love camps...they rox mann...haha...lets not tok abt it...on the another hand...sure gonna go skool to do lotta campfire stuff...even if not own department...maybe nid help others...haha...mi hands so ached now...after carryin bricks n zinc plate b4 we knew abt a device called trolley...haha...we so dumb sia...but nvm...shall use the trolley more in time to come...

haha...fri no skool...but i tink cant go out...even if k...might nid do fire department work...or emcee script...if not might be kena trapped in the hse like in a jail house...will stupid bros n cousins all dae long...yuks...muz go find things to do mann...cant stand to stay at home all dae...so boring...skool even more fun...

guess the term is over...gotta accept it...ya...but sec2 life so fun...haha...will nv forget it...2N2 though not good...rox la...haha...ya...miz ya forever...ya...haha...oh mann...so sad...haha...oh well...tmr dun come la...let mi enjoy this perfect moment...like cedar 2004 cf...combine activities...NDP celebrations...cross country which so happens to be on mi bdae...the many crappy times...the uncountable neoprintz taken till mi pocket kena hole...lots la...plus army open hse...haha...oh mann...so many things i accomplished this yr...did tis yr...sure oso waste lotta saliva...haha...i din regret life tis yr like how i regreted last yr...this yr was great fun enthusiatic interestin blalalahx...though got ups n downs...haha...i sure enjoyed to the fullest...haha...let mi enjoy this moment...forever n ever.........

posted by Humpty @ 9:59 PM 0 comments

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posted by Humpty @ 9:24 PM 0 comments

Marion...you gotta accept life for wad is it and walk on...face the challenge...ya...

haha...todae had campfire'05 meetin...ya...conflicts...too much conflicts le...gotta break the ice...haha...we're doin on royalities...haha...ya...tt a tough but interestin theme...at least it is feassible...ya...had out departments announced n i wud like to congratulate the new i/cs,chairman n blahx...hope ur k lead us well n hope tt we sec2s will make cedar campfire'05 a success...ya...

haha...went to mac n did some fire structure work...for the first time...we were constructive...came out lotta stuff...ya...ur department...shihan-i/c...yu rong,verena n andrea n ME...haha...have to draw lotta things sia...the 5 of us...haha...gotta sun burn,train up(not exactly,but muz have strength la),run here n there,scream,teach,draw,do deco,research,light fire...haha...basically we gonna be all rounder...its quite fun la...k be in fire structure 4 sec3...i really happy...muz thx seniors sia...haha...

ya...am i in self-denial...haha...feel so damm unstable todae...full power blown emotions...all mixture...the high n low...all got...wahx...really die mann...learnt frm miself yesterdae sth...we gotta accept life fer wad is it...n nothing is gonna change but u...so muz well face tt challenge ahead...conquer all wadever tt dun help n distract...haha...but i scare la...a moment of quiet helps...but tmr...i juz hope to beat mi enemy...which is mi miself...

i a weird person...like keet sae...i k relate well to others...tt why maybe i find everyone oki...no bad stuff abt them...azi oso sae...i muz not let ppl step on mi...but...i dunno...sth is i either dunno,close one eye,or suan le bahx...but i end up hurt...haha...but i gonna try...ya...relatin to others...quite cool sia...k be a psychologist or maybe criminalogist if i decided or sth crops up in army life to be a combat...haha...hu noes i might be an entertainer...cos mi gift is to crap non-stop whole dae wrong...so if i not crappin...means sth wrong...

b4 this...i felt down...dunno why...told miselfto be string...haha...but after a few daes...things be oki...cos i'm a sway but lucky person...a rare mixture...n the gd thing is tt i dun take things easily...haha...think...if i'm out in the sun....climbin to roof of MPH...tt will be mi world...nothing...no worries no distarctions...but onli a wonderful world...

realli learnt alot todae...n i'm thankful for it...ya...but haha...nid mi help anyone...juz call mi...i be there oki...???sayonara...back to drawin fire structure stuff...haha...

posted by Humpty @ 10:08 PM 0 comments

i love guides,ltc,seniors,army,music,phycology,toking,math,sci,humanity,ang esp GUIDES...i cant live w'o it...yeah...ever since i join guides...i love it...writin ths entry with lotta emotion...been tokin abt guides everydae if i noticed miself...everything is got guides...


no guides...i will die...i will cry mi hearts out...wad i learnt in sunday class todae...realli makes sense 4 the first time...committment...wad is it...is whether u are committed...whether u are loyal anot...if u juz join guides becos its slack...u're wrong...cos guides is not slacked if u noticed...whether bein given a position to mi at the end of the dae...doesnt realli matters...maybe it does...a small impact...but to mi...if i am committed to guides...tt realli matter to mi...cos i join guides quittin vball...n its a thing tt i will nv regret...


i am proud,happy to sae tt i am a member of cedar guides...no matter wad happens...may the guidin sprirt be there n tt we will succeed alwaes...i love guides...I LOVE GUIDES...i proud to be a guides todae,tmr,forever,and even after i die...


ya...tt all i wanna sae...addin on...if u trust n have faith in urself...wad u wan will come true at the end of the dae...
accept for wad things are meant to be and be brave n face the challenge...ya...tt all for wad i wanna sae...

posted by Humpty @ 9:07 PM 0 comments

i love belay skool sia...

day 3
mi grp falcon with delta n echo did absellin...haha...quite fun...damm nice k...absellin...but dangerous la...cos if u lose control sure die one...haha...ten had test on obstacles and knots...haha...

obstacles test...we had to tie the climbers end n belayers end...haha...it was oki...but they sae we all did badly...haha...had to change the runner to the dynamic rope...haha...it was oki...but i reckon i made couple of mistakes....

knots test...was oki...but mi grp din noe how to coil rope at the end...did another method which was wrong...but nvm la..but now we noe liao lop...ten they test tyin of diff knots...oki la...they ask the knots i tink i oki...haha...but the results they sae bad la...so we all oso die big time...

Belay skool end liao...i so look fwd to LTC...ya...haha...cos mi n sumitra are emcees 4 LTC campfire...lotta thing to prepare...but i hope we k do it la...anywae...falcon rox...

haha...todae went to skool early 4 guides campfire 2005 emcee audition...haha....didnt do so well...cos i like luff...ten nervour abit...n was pai se la...cos malu la...haha...but anywae...emcee or not...hope campfire 2005 will be a successful one...haha...but i hope i k go be in fire structure...muz intro harness there...so ppl upstairs wun fall...haha...

guides campfire,LTC n guides annual camp...here i come...i love ur sia...

posted by Humpty @ 1:04 PM 0 comments

AHHHHHHHHHHHHHH...I hate it...!!!=(...pissed...

posted by Humpty @ 9:48 PM 0 comments

I love BELAY sKooL...it rawk, rox, rocks...!!!yeah...i feel good...and proud to be a cedarian...haha...the attachment scheme over liao...haha...had to go check ppl attire fer 3 daes...haha...but i dun wanna be a PC...an experience is enuff to give mi a fun time in cedar...haha...so hope they dun tink i good...even if yes...i waould reject...but psl..i tink i consider...will ask ppl 4 advise...haha...but mi a PPL...no one believes rite...even mi i dun believe it...haha...

Belay skool is so fun...

day 1

learnt knots, first aid n orienteerin...haha...nervous, but nice la if try to lead ppl to greet...but haha...did twice ten i din liao...but muz try at least once...luckily got combine session with ACSB or not i tink i still be "gong" in knots...haha...got this long rope...must ensure that ropes r properly kept...do not stamp,kick,step pn it as it will cause fibre of rope to break...haha...

ten it was first aid...actually first aid is interestin...if k do practical...yar...got 9 pages of notes...plus some missin words...with illegible handwriting...copy like siao...abt uses of things in first aid kit...ten got smellin socks...ehhx...its smellin salts...haha...suppose to make fainted ppl wake up...but haha...quite nice smellin to certain ppl...haha...ten did the evacuation...haha...not supposed to luff...got scoldin 4 luffin...learnt 2 , 3, 4 hand chair...haha...interestin sia...haha...yeah...get to carry ppl...ten learnt how to operate stretcher...haha...but haha...when they test...i sure die cos lotta first aid stuff...haha...

ten last was orienteerin...learnt abt compass...n how to read bearin, place map...ten blah...like geo lessons...cool...ten later got game...cool lop...ten they end with water parade..."YUMMMMMMMM SSSSSEEENNNNGGGG"!!!

haha...its was fun sia...

day2
went 4 trust buildin game,belayin techniques n rock wall climbing n empolderin...haha..trust buildin game...did spottin n liftin...i was the first to do spottin n got lifted up....but quite cool sia...i love mi team mates...they r good...hope i not heavy...falcon rox...haha...no la...came out with the fly fly fly cheer...haha...quite diao...haha...ten learnt so many claps...cool....

ten went learnt belayin techniques...learnt to wear hundners...i dunno how to spell...haha...ten learnt to belay...haha...ten learnt to fall...haha...cool...ten got suspended in mid air...cos team mates gotta sing a song b4 i could come down...haha...lotta ppl oso like tt...

ten rock climbing n blahx...haha...cool...but sway...was the first again...realli riskin mi life...but hu cares...cos got the side of rock wall when rocks are little, yet small n flat...so sure hard...climb to 3m...ten could not find anymore rocks...ten tried to reach...ten i slidded down before k tell spotters...haha...got blister on hand ten blood la...but not serious la...went first aid there...got wash n put medication...actually the leaders, chief n assit chiefs quite nice la...haha...ya...ten they sae i cannot climb...haha...sad cos i wan climb to the top...but haha...wan xin did it...yeah...so stand down there help n cheer lop...

haha

conclusion...belay skool so damm fun...i love it sia...n muz trust ppl ard u if u wanna survive...haha...yepps...gtg...wad option u wanna choose 4 streamin...i dunno la...but haha...i realli dunno...oki...bye...

posted by Humpty @ 8:37 PM 0 comments

haha...yeah skool open...haha...had a great dae todae...

check exam paper la...haha...happy tt i din fail eng...i PASSED...heard tt...i PASSED...and its a gd thing...i saved miself frm gettin thrown of the cedar boat...haha...ya...oso check chi n science paper...yeah...haha...somehow marks bit unexpected...got a shocked relli...

had the wadever PPL thing todae...sigh...i inside lop...now muz go ard tellin ppl to be guai cedarian n mi lahx...cannot be bad small boy boy liao...haha...or not die...somemore mentor pam xia...sometimes follow janica...haha...but tel u...i dun wanna be prefect...haha...not realli nice goin ard tellin ppl to be guai...but muz follow skool rules la...haha..ten muz write report on the attachment scheme...haha...

tmr belay skool...i'm so lookin fwd to it...u noe wad...mi legs aren't still...haha...got a shock after hearin chief wan meet mi n nick...ya...but she wanted info like telephone all this...wahx...haha...but tink abt it...dun nid to be so scare la...juz go have fun 4 belay skool k liao...haha...so tmr gonna carry this 1.5 mineral water bottle to skool...haha...heavy sia...but belay skool fun...haha...

todae like unexpected dae...first results...second is chief...third is meetin lotta ppl todae(haha...hint hint to the ppl...haha)...fourth...lib ppl juz cal mi...k take the cip letter...fifth...mi bro like playin guitar...haha...i sure a betta guitarnist...sixth...i gonna play bball later with mi bro...care to join..os he pro-er ten mi...i sure lose unless he dun play serious...haha...gonna slp super early todae...no so late...need energy 4 belay skool...wahx...wish the time past faster...haha...

yeah...sure a nice dae todae...esp cos of sth...haha...ya...got an advise...do not type blog while eatin dinner...ur food sure go all cold...haha...wahx...dun believe its onli 5 n i'm eatin dinner...haha...i'm so hyper todae...gen wo feng bahx...haha...BYEz...i come back frm lib,play bball ten come online again...haha...cya ppl...i love mi black guitar...

posted by Humpty @ 5:09 PM 0 comments

after a long period of sianness n bein followed...i finally went out safe n sound...basically escape when tt bloody person not at home lolx...so muz still becareful...haha....yeah...after many days, weeks, months of longin...i dun believe it sia...i finally got a GUITAR...yeah...a GUITAR...black colour one...totally rawk k...haha...yeah...haha...will take good care of it n learn learn learn many many many chords...haha...i love music...

haha...yesterdae was mi relative bdae...she booked chalet ma...so go there 4 BBQ...haha...too bad cannot stay over...haha...so i meet her 2 sisters at orchard lolx...with mi bro taggin along...haha...so he gotta walk with us...somemore he dun even noe where heeren sia...cant even spell heeren k...he spell like "kiren"...haha...wahx...the 2 of them totally opposite frm mi...ya...wear skirt...haha...told mi dad...u will nv dream of mi wearin one...haha...ten we sat an 4mins ride to pasir ris...mi relative rich lolx...sae take taxi ten she pay...haha...at the chalet...wanted to dunk mi bdae relative into the pool...she like damm short...tink i taller by 1 head...ten v v small in size...but she 21 le...

haha...ya...todae...went church...after more ten 2 mths of bein missin in actions...haha...i went back...start the christmas carollin todae le...haha...so anyone wanna hear carollin k tel mi ten we go ur hse n carol if k la...haha...bein missin so long...haha...really cannot siam anywhere...cos there be ppl ard stoppin mi...haha...ya...ten mi church fren sae cedar maths prelim paper v hard...haha...ten she like siao...pia-in 4 o level cont...nv slp nv eat...later after 1 mth time...reduce to a bag of bones...haha...nice bein back i sae...cat klass borin la...is not go learn abt cats oki...is short for catholism class...ya...todae practically everyone slpin...while tt nun juz tok tok tok...wahx...worst ten mrs yeo i muz sae...they k meet n shake hands sia...conduct lessons to one another...haha...

haha...tmr collectin marks...scare sia...tues,wed n fri belay skool...lookin fwd to it sia...haha...anywae...gd dae to all...dun be sian...tmr skool le...so skool is fun rite...nods head...haha...bb...

posted by Humpty @ 4:36 PM 0 comments

haha...had 3 bad encounter todae...wahx...

dun wanna mention much...onli tt...someone tryin to gen zhong wo...sway k...n ya...i got the shudders...ya...if tt person gonna do tt 1 more time...i gonna punch tt person face...wahx...tt person makin mi freaked out...hands gettin cold...now i tryin to find ways to stop tt person...tt person sux...

ya...went to lib....after exams somemore...but go there oso cannot get cip letters...by tues ten k...ya...so went mac...ya...ten mi n elaine tok tok tok...ya...haha...at least tt person not ard...so felt fine till i went home...he like threatenin mi like tt the wae behaves...tt person tink he great...and tt...it so yuks...er xin...

ya...yuks...gonna have nightmares le la...yuks...juz hope tt person dun come near mi...ya...k already...

posted by Humpty @ 5:04 PM 0 comments

wahx...tis the worst dae ever...the worst holi...actually i prefer skool...ten stayin ay home alone...goin crazy already...jumpin like siao in the hse...cos i feel like a prisoner trapped within 4 walls...haha...cant wait 4 later...goin play bball...sian sia...ya....ten muz oso find a dae go gelang lib sign cip card...ya..markin dae seem fun last time...now i'm dreadin it...ya...haha...

just on the tv...saw elmo showin on kids central...wahx...goosebump...high pitched voice...but cute la...n...tt was the show most of us c when we are young...wahx...time passes so slowly...haha...i love mi hair now...dun need to comb oso k...haha...sian sia...gonna be a long long dae...

haha...enjoy the dae sia...bb...

posted by Humpty @ 1:24 PM 0 comments

haha...so long...haha...nv update...cos exam ma...ya...todae exams over...went cineleisure watch white chicks...haha...lame but got stress relieve pill...haha...dunno why so happy exams over tt fever last nite 39.2 went to 37...yeah...

after movie...ten take lotta neoprints...one after another...cut hair yeaterdae...lookin more like a guy...haha...wahx...now i'm broke...haha...yeah...next week belay skool...yeah...haha...yeah...wahx...i cant wait 4 post exam sia...k slack like siao...ten play like siao...enjoy like siao...haha...k go out...freedom le la...ya...haha...

haha...i love camps sia...yeah...haha...yeah...LTC thing i'm in falcon...haha...with...shireen n elaine...n pris...sylvia...n many many ppl...haha...yeah...haha...gonna learn n experience lotta thing frm there...so gd la...

haha...guess tis it...haha...bye ppl...

posted by Humpty @ 6:45 PM 0 comments